Abstract

"This autobiography has been written by Prashant, a homosexual man. At the age of 18 years he was sent to college to study engineering. In the engineering college he fell in love with one of his class mates. As time passed, both of them became more and more attached to each other. However, they had to separate when their studies finished and they had to leave the college. Even after leaving the college, they remained associated with each other for six more years. In these six years they kept on meeting each other once in about six months for 2-3 days. Then, due to excessive family pressure, Prashant's friend had to marry. Prashant was mentally shattered due to this and he lived in this shattered state for a long time. As his mental condition started to recover slightly, he had to face another problem. Due to his circumstances he also had to marry. Naturally, he was unable to give any love to his wife and she became a half lunatic. The two children who were born to him grew up physically and mentally retarded, as with both their father and mother in bad mental condition there was nobody to take proper care of them. Four lives were completely ruined. Today Prashant's condition is very bad. His tears never stop. Devoid of any love, friends or purpose in life, he is tired, spent and very lonely. Prashant lives in New Delhi, the capital city of India. He is about 50 years old now."

Der Autor über sich selbst

"The author took birth in a lower midle class family in northern India. After his schooling, he studied mechanical engineering. Thereafter, he did his post graduate degree in computers and took a job. He had found a soulmate in his engineering college but he could not live with him. He married a woman sometime after separating from his friend. Two children were born to the author but his family life was very sad. One day he thought that if he writes his true-life story and if it can be published somewhere then probably the attitude of society towards homosexuals may change and the lives of crores of other people like him may be saved. He, therefore, painstakingly wrote his story, as he was an engineer and not a literary author, in a language suitable for publishing and sent it to thirty five Indian newspapers and magazines but not even a single one of them published it. Most of them did not reply at all. The author then sent several emotional appeals to them saying that he only wanted to serve the mankind and he was not going to have any personal gains from this but no one heard. A few publications replied but all in negative. They all had the reservation that since the story was effective and it was expected to easily penetrate the minds of the people and make them sympathetic towards homosexuals, they cannot publish it. They were afraid that the story might dramatically change the society, something which they could not tolerate. They were all the same publications who openly publish abstract/generic type of articles on homosexuality without any hesitation or apprehension - the articles which do not have any effect on a human mind and which are almost a wastage of news-print and printer's ink. All this happened in mid 1999. The author wanted to forget his sorrows by serving the humanity but the Indian media has let him down."

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